Crying to the Creator is only possible from the state called “the desert.” The desert is an absence of the Creator between us, no feeling of connection with Him. He disappeared, left us, and all we can do is cry, as it is said: “the voice of the one crying in the wilderness.”1
The Creator cares for us to keep revealing new desires to enjoy from our broken desires, and for us to feel ourselves more removed from the goal with each passing day. This is because the desire opposite to our correction keeps rising every day. We have to overcome this egoism when we find ourselves more and more removed from the goal, losing strength and understanding, falling into despair.
All this advancement goes against our common sense. How is it possible that the more we advance the further away we find ourselves? But all of this works in accordance with the structure of the spiritual Partzuf: the greater the egoistic desire, the more removed from the goal we feel. But the more we overcome egoism and rise above it with the intention to bestow, the closer we are to the goal. Two opposites in one.
Thus, one does not understand what is happening and falls under the power of one’s mood. This is hard work that pulls us in two different directions. But we must persevere, each time strengthening our resolve with our eyes closed, diving into the group, and advancing this way. Every time I find myself removed from spirituality, meaning distanced from the group, I must get closer to it, which means to get closer to the Creator. This is the only way to conquer our evil inclination that is rising day by day. The way I conquer it is not by using my own strength but by turning to the Creator.
The first problem is that the evil keeps becoming greater each time. The second is that I cannot directly fight this growing egoism with my own strength, I must turn to the Creator, whom I do not see, for help. To turn to the Creator is only possible through the group; thus, we must constantly raise the importance of the friends, the group, and continue integrating in them more and more.
There are several important milestones along the way that will indirectly manifest in us on their own, we need to scrutinize, strengthen our resolve, and rise above our mind and feelings. Of utmost importance here is not to give up in this war, not to retreat or despair.2
The cry to the Creator has to be a common cry. That is the difference between religion and the science of Kabbalah. Within a religious framework everyone can cry to the Creator and believe that it will help. And it does, psychologically. But if one truly wants to turn to the Creator, such an approach is only possible through the right system, through a Kli, through love of others, by creating the common soul of Adam HaRishon.
We will be pushed further away from the ten every time. We will have the feelings of neglect toward the friends, our own weakness, hopelessness, and, in general, the meaninglessness of this work. Yesterday for several minutes it was possible to connect to my friends and the Creator, to tie myself together with the group and with the Creator. While today it all seems unreal and meaningless to me.
But if I truly want to reveal the Creator and the purpose of creation, if I anchor myself to the truth, then the truth is above my nature, faith is above knowledge, meaning bestowal above reception. Thus, it is only possible to reach it through exercises like the constant hardening of the heart that manifests itself in the inability to connect in the ten, to build the spiritual Partzuf into the ten Sefirot, the soul.
I am constantly pushed back so that I can make another difficult step forward toward unity. This is how I advance toward the truth. And if today I don’t feel that it is more difficult to connect with the group, then I am not advancing toward the goal. Therefore, it is said: “The opinion of the Torah differs from that of the people.”
People cannot advance in the system when each step becomes harder and harder. This goes against logic and common sense. How can it be that I move forward and it becomes harder and harder for me day by day, the connection becomes more unbearable, as if I am being punished for this work? How can this be advancement?
But this indeed is so, and “the opinion of the Torah,” meaning advancement with the help of the light that reforms, is “opposite to the opinion of people.” People receive new understanding, feelings, and assurances. Here we see a reverse process. A Kabbalist must lower himself to the level of “Shimon from the market” in order to rise to the height of the end of correction.3
We must cherish each friend, but without invading his personality or thoughts, without scrutinizing what is happening to him. We must reassure each person, creating a group atmosphere of concern for all, not anyone individually, but for the whole ten. Mutual guarantee is a field we create with ten Kelim, ten friends.
No one has anything individually! But this is what makes us strong because we want the common strength to be built from nothing. This strength cannot be granted to us, not even by the Creator; only together can we create this power of mutual guarantee. This is what we have to ask for and demand. Let the upper light help us by giving us the strength of support in the group.
The power of support is called mutual guarantee. This is how we assure the group and all of its members that we will not escape, but that we will always be in mutual care because this is what everyone builds their hopes on for the future. This is what the spiritual Partzuf of ten Sefirot will be built on, the soul.
This is why we have been given a state of despair, where we have nothing, so that we can start building our connection from it, our safety belt, the mutual guarantee. It belongs to us because the upper light will come according to our efforts, dressed in them, giving us the power of the mutual guarantee and uniting us in a ten. Then it will be a ten, and we will begin building our Partzuf, the soul.4
Each of us is responsible for the whole Kli of Adam HaRishon. This is the law of working in the perfect system, in spirituality: until the tiniest element, the very last desire is corrected, the whole Kli is uncorrected. This is what is meant by there is no “partial” work in spirituality. We must remember that.5
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 2/5/20,“Common Outcry to the Creator” (Preparation for the Convention in Desert)
1 Minute 0:20
2 Minute 2:20
3 Minute 7:20
4 Minute 46:15
5 Minute 1:20:00