Time is what confuses us. If there were no past, present, and future, but only one point in time, one moment, we would be living in a different reality. Since we do not know what will happen in the next moment that exists toward us because it is concealed, we have a problem.
On the other hand, it is great that we do not know our future and cannot predict anything. After all, this gives us the chance to need the Creator! This is the most important point that we must reach: the need for the Creator’s help, for His revelation.
He must reveal Himself, otherwise I cannot exist even in a simple egoistic way, I cannot organize my life. I need the Creator to appear because only He knows how to stabilize and arrange everything so that I can live confidently. This is necessary for me even egotistically; it is not about bestowal yet.
There are special exercises that start from egoism, from this world, from the desire to enjoy, and they continue till the greatest heights in the desire to bestow. The single goal of all these exercises is to feel the need for the Creator.
Therefore, we want to accelerate time and bring ourselves to the state of utter uncertainty before the next moment, to feel ourselves dependent on the unknown, on fate, and on unpredictability of the next moment. The fear before uncertainty does not pass until the end of all the corrections, till the very last degree of the spiritual ladder.
If we want to accelerate time, we must ourselves find tricks to let us relate everything to the upper force. Then “the children of Israel will sigh because of the labor, and they will cry, and their cry will come up unto God because of the labor. And God will hear their groaning,” and He will answer them and bring them closer. Then at the next degree, we again will find ourselves helpless, suspended between heaven and earth to such an extent that it will cause panic, deadly fear. Yet, under lesser conditions, a person will not need the help of the Creator.
Therefore, we must be happy that we have reached the state when we already can practice this at least a little. These exercises will help us understand what it means to rise by faith above reason and to be suspended in the air, what it means not to feel the ground under our feet and to have nothing to lean on when everything is shaking. This is a special state from which spirituality begins.
If a person makes himself completely dependent on the Creator and not on himself, if he does not feel any support in his egoistic perception, in time, movement, and space, then this is a big success. In this way, he starts his journey on the spiritual path.1
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 6/22/18, Lesson on the Topic: “Unite into One Ten”
1 Minute 11:17