Question: How is it possible to understand that the Creator manages all of my actions? This is a kind of spiritual schizophrenia. I feel that I am carrying out all the actions and really believe that He is the one carrying them out. How is it possible to live with this?
Answer: Live comfortably and do not worry. You don’t need to drop this on anyone; everything that you do, you will do.
This is not a split personality; it just seems that way at first. In fact, this is achieved to the same degree in which the person becomes similar to the Creator, so there is no split between whether it is me or the Creator; everything goes on very simply.
The person connects himself with the Creator and sees how the Creator is found in his entire body, in all his desires and intentions. The Creator manages him, he agrees, is satisfied, and from his side he wants to coordinate all his actions, desires, and intentions with the Creator.
From the Kabbalah Lesson in Russian 3/12/17