The Torah, “Numbers” 14:1 – 14:4: The entire community raised their voices and shouted, and the people wept on that night. All the children of Israel complained against Moses and Aaron, and the entire congregation said, “If only we had died in the land of Egypt, or if only we had died in this desert. Why does the Lord bring us to this land to fall by the sword; our wives and children will be as spoils. Is it not better for us to return to Egypt?” They said to each other, “Let us appoint a leader and return to Egypt!”
The nation of Israel falls to the lowest point again and cannot begin to rise again. This is the best place to start and until a person falls to this point, there is no reascending. Until then the children of Israel resisted, spied, and clarified things, and suddenly they discovered the ego that tells them that they don’t need anyone but Pharaoh: “We cannot do anything against him.”
Just as they escaped from Egypt to Sinai, now having crossed the Sinai desert, they fall to the initial state once again and once again feel that they are in Egypt but of their own free will! With that will they will reach the land of Israel. The people begin to rebel: “We don’t want Moses! He leads us to the land of Israel, but we don’t want to go there. We want to be under the domination of Pharaoh until we reach the complete feeling and will not be able to ascend before that. But this has to be attained consciously, when we understand who we are. Then we will be able to advance.”
Question: How would you feel if your students came to you with complaints like the people came to Moses saying he brought them nowhere?
Answer: I would accept it with absolute tranquility and would leave everything the way it is. There is nothing one can do here. If there were a consensus, I would have no choice but to retire and leave everything to the Creator’s mercy.
We are actually far from this point and have to work hard in order to attain it, but if it were revealed, I would be delighted because it is the recognition of our evil nature, of our weakness, our powerlessness, and our lack of faith and total lack of connection with the person who has lead you forward, which is simply vital and has to be fulfilled. I felt a similar resistance towards my teacher Rabash. These states are essential and this is the reason I am not worried and actually rejoice inside because it is impossible to advance without such breaking points.
Then the people don’t disperse and say: “Let’s go back to Egypt and live there. We will reconnect to our Pharaoh.” In other words, all the work we did during the 40 years in the desert now becomes in Pharaoh’ s favor. It is bestowal with the intention to receive, good egoistic communism. They want Pharaoh, not the same Pharaoh they knew before, not the Pharaoh of Egypt, but the new one that is now revealed. This means that the ego is revealed in them on a totally new level. It is a very good state because when they cross this point, they enter the land of Israel.
Only after a person yearns to advance with all his might and is repeatedly set back, and returns time after time, until he is finally thrown out. But now against his will, he surrenders to the ego and says: “I cannot, I am helpless.” This point of helplessness is essential in order to understand that you have to be totally connected to the Creator to an even greater extent than before. Without it you don’t feel the need for the Creator.
Therefore, when you think that you can only manage with Pharaoh, it is a sign of your lack of connection with the Creator. You would like to be connected, but you cannot, and so you prefer Pharaoh. This means that although the spies brought fruits from the land of Israel with them, they remain outside the land of Israel.
From KabTV’s “Secrets of the Eternal Book” 4/8/15