Question: How does one build the desire “to receive for the sake of bestowal” correctly?
Answer: To receive for the sake of bestowal is an incredibly difficult thing and not worth thinking about in the meantime. Our first task is to rise above our ego. And we must use our ego and more “for the sake of bestowal,” this is a very tall order.
Comment: But leaving one’s own nature is no less of a “very tall order.”
Answer: No, it is much lower. Everything begins with a person nullifying himself with regard to the group. Growth and the accumulation of the importance of the goal, the level called Lo Lishma (not for Her name), happens while he is still within the ego but gradually advances towards departing from it.
Departing from the ego is called crossing the Machsom (barrier), a conditional boundary between two worlds, physical and spiritual. Further a person begins to rise in levels of “bestowal for the sake of bestowal,” reaches the fifth, maximal level and only later the level of “reception for the sake of bestowal.”
Question: And if I don’t have a desire to be integrated with others, what happens then?
Answer: Nobody has this desire. But necessity obliges one. If you want to attain the goal of life, you need to go through all of this, and if not, then you will need to go through this against your will. Initially you have no desire to work against the ego, you are an absolutely healthy person. But the importance of the goal obligates you to begin to work against it.
From the Convention In St. Petersburg “Day Three” 9/21/14, Lesson 5