Question: Why is it that when we hear about the importance of dissemination we are on fire and the burn with desire to go out to disseminate, but tomorrow all of our desire fades and disappears?
Answer: This is deliberately arranged so that we will overcome our desire. If it were pleasant for us to disseminate, we would get no benefit.
And so we have to make an effort against our desire because we think that this is important for spiritual development, even though on the physical level it does not seem important to us and is even repulsive. It follows that this is really work for us.
We must understand that where resistance from the body is not felt, there is no spiritual reward! It’s very simple. So if we don’t want to go out to disseminate and we find a thousand justifications for ourselves, if this is disgusting and repulsive to us, if we are ashamed and think that we are not suited for this work, all of this resistance is specifically given to us to overcome it and get a spiritual reward.
This is called an act of overcoming through effort. The effort is accumulated drop after drop, “joined into a great amount,” until our counter jumps to the next digit and we get spiritual elevation.
This means that we have no choice; it is impossible to advance otherwise. So I am happy to hear that you do not have the ability and desire and that you don’t know where to disseminate and how; these are all excuses, but this specifically gives you the opportunity to make an effort!
Understand that if you see an opportunity to take action without effort, it is preferable not to do it! If it is pleasant for you to go out to the community, and you want this very much, are excited and happy, then you will not receive a great reward for this activity, for you have not acted against your ego.
From the 2nd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 4/3/14, Questions and Answers with Dr. Laitman