The Torah, “Exodus, Jethro,” 19:16 – 19:19: And it came to pass on the third day, in the morning, that there were thunders and lightnings and a thick cloud upon the mount, and sound of a shofar exceedingly loud; so that all the people who were in the camp trembled.
And Moses brought forth the people out of the camp to meet God; and they stood at the lower part of the mount.
And Mount Sinai was altogether in smoke, because the LORD descended upon it in fire; and the smoke ascended as the smoke of a furnace, and the whole mount trembled greatly.
And when the voice of the shofar sounded long, and became louder and louder, Moses spoke, and God answered him by a voice.
Everything that is described in the Torah happens within us. The above excerpt describes the first appearance of the property of bestowal that a person feels inside his properties. They are are still egoistic and contrary to bestowal, but at the same time, they already aspire to similarity, to uniting with these properties, and start to feel that it is something valuable and superior. Inside these qualities, we keep re-assessing our values. However, this process is accompanied by the fear of losing and devastating our internal egoism: “What shall I be left with? Where is my family? Where are my loved ones? How can I possibly give them up?”
After all, we are attached to this world by the threads of various connections. Something is closer to me, something is farther; this one I love, the other one I hate.… Everything is compartmentalized. Our whole existence is about these threads. This is how our lives are set up.
Only a few people are able to decisively cut these liaisons off and will see what happens next. For us, it’s worse than death since we completely lose self-control. Our egoism cannot tolerate it. This sensation can be compared with the birth process when a little child goes out of his mother’s womb and happens to be in the world that completely separates him from her. Can you imagine somebody who gives us life being cut off? It’s as if being deprived of oxygen.
What’s next? No more egoistic anticipations, no dreams of the future…, There is nothing to which you are accustomed to!
Question: So, does it mean that the training we go through does not prepare us for this stage?
Answer: A preparation period is meant to make you understand that you are not ready yet. Animals that live next to us do not comprehend these issues. This condition can be felt only by the property called “man” in us; it has nothing to do with the property of the “animal” in us. A preparation period is essential to lift us to the level at which we start feeling these nuances. Otherwise, why would this revelation happen, relative to whom?
The awareness of our oppositeness and unpreparedness is already an attainment. We begin realizing that the property of bestowal is contrary to us, that we are not there yet, or that we simply don’t understand it (negation of negation). Thus, we advance.
From KabTV’s “Mysteries of the Eternal Book,” 2/18/13