The spiritual body is the lower part of Bina, ZA, and Malchut, that is, the AHP, the receiving desires. We are there all the time, only the depth of the desire (Aviut), the Reshimot, changes. Depending on this Aviut, sensations also change, and thus it seems to us that each time we are in a different place, in a different world, in a different reality. Everything changes: I and my environment. I was a child, now I am already an adult, and accordingly, the environment changes: work, friends, wife, children, a big world around me, and the entire universe.
This entire picture appears within Reshimot that are awakened within my desire for pleasure, and my task is to interpret this picture correctly. But how can I feel, grasp, separate, and evaluate these properties? Where can I get such mind and heart?
In the name of this, I try to separate and become distant from my feeling and intellect, to be able to relate to them as only to the auxiliary instruments and not my own essence. I feel myself as a point that observes from within this feeling and intellect, behind the thoughts and the heart. It looks at the world through them.
If a person tries to draw this picture of his world, he gains an ability to influence it, to change it. It’s impossible to change the Reshimo I’m in. It’s only possible to hasten development and realize it so that the next Reshimo will come faster.
But it’s not just about the speed. I have ti realize the current Reshimo in such a way that it will maximally approach the world that is revealed in me in the external form. All that is now revealed in my mind and heart, meaning in my internal vessels, and all that is revealed outside of me in external form: the still, vegetative, animate, and the speaking levels of this world, all this is governed and advanced only by means of the Light that influences the Reshimot, that is, comes from the Creator, from the one Source.
And even though I feel that the inner and outer forms are in opposition, in confrontation, cancelling each other, I have to organize them so both conditions are preserved. On one hand, “a judge has only hat his can eyes see,” and the world in front of me is the true world. But on the other hand, I know that “there is none else besides Him,” and only He manages the world.
I feel the gap between these two forms as a real battle, the strongest internal conflict. Baal HaSulam describes this struggle in one of his writings, in the metaphor of the faithful servant of the king that fights with imaginary thieves and robbers seemingly attacking the king.
We have to understand that all the problems are revealed against the principle of “there is none else beside Him” so that I will clarify my characteristics, desires, and thoughts, which disclaim the oneness of the upper force and which cause me to think that there are other reasons for the imperfection of my picture of the world. This form comes from the Reshimot so that I will attribute everything to the Creator, to the Light.
But we can’t do this. The more we advance, the images become more contradictory, shattering the heart and mind of the person. The human mind is not prepared to reconcile these opposites. In the beginning, this contradiction doesn’t seem that terrible, but afterwards it reaches such degrees that a person simply is not prepared to agree with this. He can’t unite the behavior of the Creator, who is the Good who does Good, with the evil and complete injustice that he sees in front of him.
Only a third partner can resolve between these two contradictions, as it is written: “The one who makes peace in His heights, He will make peace among us.” It follows that a person absolutely needs the Light that Reforms. He truly needs this so that the Creator will rule over him and will change his mind and heart.
And so he “connects with the Sefirot,” discovers within himself, within his receiving desires (the lower part of Bina, ZA, and Malchut), the Light coming from GE. Thus he identifies with the upper force and feels in what state, in what world, the Light of Nefesh–Ruach–Neshama, he is.
From the 4th part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 4/19/13, Shamati #68