A person usually begins to weigh things and to make egoistic calculations, just like in everyday life: Is it worth it to get up and go to work now? And he decides that for 200 dollars he is ready to get up, but for 50 dollars there is no point in getting up and making an effort.
Perhaps from the ego’s perspective this is a right calculation, but if we speak about working in order to bestow, then we have to take into account that our profit is in how much we give, in how much we advance towards the Creator! And here, even one penny can be worth not a penny but billions of dollars. It all depends on how great the one we bestow to is.
So the account should be an account of bestowal and not an account of receiving. In the account of bestowal, the more insignificant and unimportant the work may seem, the more rewarding it can be. This is because our exertion and overcoming the disrespect makes this minor work many times more important.
What seems as minor and unimportant in my egoistic perspective becomes a great opportunity that I receive in return for a little effort, but this is if I switch it all to bestowal. After all everything will be cleared in the thought. I have to make a little effort in order to overcome my doubts; should I deal with something that seems unimportant? But if I do it and start working on what seems to my corporeal eyes as unimportant, I already perform a spiritual action.
So although on the egoistic level it seems that I did something small and unimportant, on the spiritual level it has great value. If I start thinking about to whom I bestow, I will be able to value my profit. The main thing is the Creator’s greatness. My yearning is not to attain Him, but rather His greatness. This reveals Him and allows me to attain revelation.
The difference between the concealment of the Creator and His revelation is determined by one thing only: Do we disrespect Him or do we try to feel His greatness. This is the only thing that changes our vessel and brings us to revelation.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 7/3/12, Writings of Baal HaSulam