Question: Why is it that when I get stronger and invest in the group, I encounter greater difficulties?
Answer: In order to help you advance, greater obstacles are placed in your way. Thus, you reach a state when the obstacles become huge, but your desire to overcome them is also very big. However, if you quit and fail to overcome a certain obstacle, your desire will not grow, and then the same obstacles will be placed in your way, and you will feel as if your car is stuck and only the wheels are spinning.
This means that you are not saving time, but that you actually are wasting it in vain. So, instead of advancing in a few years’ time and entering spirituality, you will crawl until you get there in thirty or forty years, or you may not get there at all. It will seem that you have dedicated your entire life for that, that you have worked for the Creator and yearned to attain Him, but, in fact, you did not yearn for anything.
So, before a convention of connection, we set external conditions so that, at least externally, a person will be able to check himself and see whether he is investing in his advancement or not. Does he attend the daily lesson? Does he take part in dissemination every day? Does he pay Maaser, a tithe?
He will have to fill out a form every week about what he does for the group in order to assess himself critically. How will you advance if you don’t make constant efforts to create a new vessel inside you, by preparing it for the revelation of the Creator?
You are in a system, like a spider in a web, and all your thoughts and desires that are connected to the internal work, to the spiritual goal, are under the influence of the Light. The Light influences you and helps you advance through all the hardships, problems, and rejections since “the Torah will come out of Zion” (the Hebrew root of exit).
However, you will not be able to do it by yourself. If you don’t attend the daily lesson, don’t think about dissemination, don’t work together with the friends, don’t fill out a questionnaire about “what I have done for the group,” then you won’t advance. It isn’t just a demand of you; it is because we want to help you advance at least mechanically since if your car is stuck, we want to move you and oblige you to advance.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 7/12/12, Writings of Rabash