We need to clarify why the Creator has created everything exactly the way He has. Everything was in His hands and He could have done it differently, couldn’t He? He is not an inhabitant of our world who needs to accept everything as given.
Yet why did He establish a reverse order of desires and Lights, due to which the desires that attract the Light and reveal it through great effort receive only a tiny illumination, while the biggest Light, which they do not know or feel, becomes revealed at a completely different place? Why does it need to be this way?
The biggest benefit from concealing the enormous work that we carry out is that it does not confuse us. It’s terrific that the great Light that we summon is concealed from us.
I perform a small action within myself, revealing my connection with everyone else and pushing them toward being connected, and thereby awaken a huge Light in the upper worlds. However, I do not reveal it. And this is good because if it were to be revealed, I would close myself off. I would become so proud that my spiritual path would be over. That is why I must be grateful that the Light is concealed, protecting my desire.
On the other hand, I must develop the desire for bestowal. Although I see that I do not receive any benefit from my work, I nevertheless want to continue. There is no reward and so be it, but I connect to the group, to the environment, and I do not demand anything for myself besides the ability to give.
Such an opportunity always exists in front of me. If I really want it, all paths are open to me. Don’t say that the skies are closed in front of you; everything is open! There is no restriction on bestowal, and you have nothing to cry about. If you do, it means that you are crying about egoistic receiving. You can do anything you want, but you won’t be able to grab anything for yourself.
At the time of bestowal, the desires and the Lights filling them are hidden from us. This serves us well in every sense, and we need to be grateful for it. First of all, it allows us to not block ourselves due to the huge Light, and secondly, it allows us to develop the quality of bestowal in a place of complete darkness.
From the 3rd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 9/20/2011, TES