The Creator is concealed; the property of bestowal is concealed; the future is concealed, and I can’t see it with my egoistic vision. No spiritual property can become revealed in my current egoism, and I have no opportunity to influence its exposure but to work with the environment. Indeed, I reveal my unwillingness and inability to unite specifically there. I’m ready for anything but this!
This is called the "revelation of evil," the hindrances coming from Pharaoh, and if we do not overcome them together, they will bury us beneath them. All these crimes and quarrels that took place in Egypt and then in the desert, fights with each other and the Creator, all of them are the demands for some fulfillment, for payment in the place where you have to only think about bestowal and not about yourself.
The instant you think about your own benefit, it is a crime. Even if you do not receive anything, the very anticipation of a reward for your bestowal is a sin. One needs to strive for this aspiration to be one-sided and make sure that this one-sidedness constantly intensifies. Indeed, the second the tension weakens, the demand for oneself emerges naturally. For this reason, we need the environment’s support and mutual guarantee.
What helps me not to drill a hole in our common boat, not to think about myself but only about the environment, about our future ship? Only the friends’ support. It’s because I’m under their influence, they own my heart and mind and become more important to me than I myself. The environment has to impart me with such an attitude.
This will allow me to detach myself from selfish thoughts and to switch my entire attention, all my feelings and mind outward, like a mother whose entire desire, heart, and feelings are in her baby. If I begin feeling this way, it means I received the property of bestowal.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 3/21/2011 on Preparation for the WE! Convention