Answer: The first Reshimo (informational gene) of the breaking that repels me from others must completely unfold in me. It rises to such a degree that I don’t just despise and ignore them, but in fact, I want them to suffer, separate from everybody, and think that I am better off on my own, studying at home and having no connection with others.
People even dare to come to me and ask for private lessons. A person doesn’t understand that the entire actualization of the spiritual method occurs in the group. And after this internal battle and rejection, disillusionment and despair, in time a person suddenly gets to see his internal connection with the friends. It’s as if he stops noticing their corporeal faces and bodies at all. He begins to get into them internally and feel everybody’s inner desire for spirituality, even such as the people themselves don’t feel within. But he is able to practically touch their souls.
And that’s when one can say that he came close to unification with the friends. But at this point, he discovers how unable he is to unite with them and that he needs the help of the upper force. He wishes to find this force inside this bond so that it will connect him, and thus, he achieves the realization. It’s the step by step work of one’s attainment of self, the increasingly deeper states.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 3/25/2011, Writings of Rabash