Where Is My True Self?

Dr. Michael LaitmanQuestion: How can one receive from the environment the importance of the intention to bestow?

Answer: Imagine that beside the environment there is nothing. There is no Creator, no property of bestowal, there is nothing but the environment.

We think that there is something else and it appeases us: There is the environment, but there is also the Creator, my own relationship with Him. In truth, there is nothing like that, but only the environment. Either you perceive yourself in yourself, or you can sense yourself inside the environment. It will also be you, but the perfect you that incorporates within of all of your lost pieces.

Beside these two components there is nothing. You are either submersed in your current self or you connect with the environment which you presently imagine as being outside of you: with the group, with the common desire. But that’s you!

In reality, my current perception of myself is conditioned by the fact that my egoism tears me away from my true “self,” and I think that I exist outside of it. It’s totally the opposite! My entire Kli (desire, vessel) of the soul is there, inside my true “self.” It’s just that the concealment acts upon me and I consider it foreign. Subsequently, it will become revealed to me whom I stole from, whom I deceived, or harmed. It was me myself, the people closest and dearest to me!

Question cont.: Under what condition can I receive the importance of bestowal from the environment?

Question: By faith above reason! You are looking for a rational confirmation, for a certain logic which would explain that you appeal to the group and receive support from it. Such logic does not exist. Indeed, if you were able to substantiate this logically, it would be advantageous for you to be in this team from the egoistic point of view, for instance, like in a football team. Here, however, you have no rational support!
From the 2nd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 3/21/2011, The Book of Zohar

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Dr. Michael LaitmanThe first revelation of the Creator is the discovery of the pure property of bestowal, the exit from oneself to the “outside.” Undoubtedly, it seems irrational to us: Why would I think about the others?

If I, being an egoist, think about someone else, I feel emptiness and expect compensation. I haven’t yet transcended the egoistic calculation and don’t realize that by rising above my ego, I receive a new calculation that is presently unknown to me.

I can understand that similarity to the Creator is probably beneficial. Drawing closer to Him is such an obvious gain that I’m ready to pay for it. If it requires me to exit myself, I’m ready! They also promise me the entire spiritual world, so I’m willing to work for it.

In other words, for as long as I envision a certain profit, fulfillment for myself, I naturally have the strength and readiness to connect to the environment, unite for this goal. However, the instant we start feeling that the property of bestowal won’t bring any benefit for our egoistic desires, the problem arises.

We should understand that we are about to reveal a new reality, a different dimension that has nothing in common with this world. The gap and the opposition between the two worlds is so immense that we can’t picture it beforehand. We don’t have any example that would allow us to somehow, directly or indirectly, understand, sense, or imagine anything relating to the spiritual life.

A person transitions from one world to the other, which is called “crossing the Final Sea (Yam Suf),” without knowing where he is going or what awaits him there. The Creator and the creature are two absolute opposites. And until a person moves from one to the other, it’s impossible to comprehend what their opposition means.

Hence, to demand certain understanding, attainment, or support from one’s egoistic heart and mind is to shoot oneself in the foot and halt one’s progress. How can you demand something now, if you yourself block the wheel in the carriage that carries you forward.

It’s forbidden to awaken egoistic desires! Meanwhile, we don’t only awaken them, but also embitter them by our screams: “Let me see and feel something! I want to receive some proof so as to rid myself of any doubt!” It’s as though we are making an ultimatum: “If I don’t receive, I won’t move.” We even think that this stubbornness acts to our advantage….
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbaalah Lesson 3/21/11, Preparation to the WE! Convention

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Dr. Michael LaitmanEvery person has to feel the influence of the environment on him every day, rather than just at one evening at the convention when you are so inspired that you seem to rise above yourself, to come out of yourself outwards and be included in the common mood, forgetting about your ego. We have to give the whole world this sensation of confidence, inspiration, ascent, and aspiration to the goal. Otherwise how can we advise the world to “join the good”?

Yet I hear from many people that they are experiencing descent and disappointment. That means we expect to receive something for our actions, but we don’t receive it and then our mood is ruined. However, a person who desires bestowal (Hafetz Hesed) is happy with his lot. What does he have? Nothing! He doesn’t even have a shirt on his back, like in the parable about a righteous man who lived in the forest. This means there is no clothing on the Light of Hochma.

He does not have the Light of Hochma or another fulfillment, yet he is still happy because he has ascended above his ego. This is the correction we have to acquire first of all. Obviously, the Creator will never give in to our stubborn persistence and He won’t become revealed. His revelation means our correction. If we attain correction which is called “reception for the sake of bestowal,” then we will begin to reveal Him.

I am the Creator’s actions. And if I receive for the sake of bestowal, then this action I make is called the Creator— the force of the Leading One that operates inside the one who’s being led. That is how we must work time after time, detaching from our egoistic desire more and more, from the calculation of: How much did I earn?

Then only the society can hold me back so I would always soar up in the sky and not fall. Only it can give me the force and the stability to justify the path, even despite the fact that I do not receive anything. I will feel proud because I don’t have anything but I still go on. I can be happy precisely because I don’t receive anything for myself and am aimed at bestowal! I check all of this and evaluate it in relation to the environment. Therefore, we have to build this environment so we would constantly, ceaselessly feel the same inspiration just like at the most exciting evening of the convention, and even more so time after time.

On one hand, we have to hold conventions and get together. But on the other hand, we have to aspire for this inspired state to remain in us constantly instead of rising and falling. It is written about the Sabbath day that completes the week that the goal is to attain the state where every day will be like the Sabbath day, meaning that there will not be any descents any longer, but there will be one non-stop ascent, the end of correction (Gmar Tikkun).
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbaalah Lesson 3/21/11, Preparation to the WE! Convention

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Daily Kabbalah Lesson – 03.22.11

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The Book of Zohar — Selections, Chapter “Yitro (Jethro),” “On Eagles’ Wings,” Item 314, Lesson 6
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Talmud Eser Sefirot 3, Part 9, Item 17, Lesson 12
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Topic: The Principles of Global Education, Lesson 5
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