A question I received: How can a person check how much he has advanced from lesson to lesson?
My Answer: I must actively work on making clarifications about my advancement, in fact advancement depends on these inner scrutinies. What do I want? Is it for my sake or for the sake of bestowal? Do I have connection with the friends in this regard? Do I need them or not? Do I work from an egoistic desire or an intention to bestow, from the side of the Creator or the creature, above my egoism or within it? The whole advancement is based on such self-analysis.
It’s possible that after a good lesson, these clarifications will reveal my bad state to me, but they will be more precise, and this means that I am advancing! Every day should give me a simple result: I should come to the next lesson tomorrow with a more clarified desire. Whether or not I have a desire is irrelevant, because it is given from Above. However, does this state become better defined?
Possibly, this analysis will lead me to a dead end where everything becomes unclear and foggy. But this too indicates greater clarity and clarification. The Light that comes to me during the lesson provides me with definitions; whether they are positive or negative is irrelevant. These definitions allow me to perform a more refined and precise analysis in order to evaluate myself, my state, in regard to the Creator or the goal – in all the directions.
In this manner, the Light affects the desire: When it illuminates it, I see more in it. Even if I stop discerning anything, and suddenly I become completely confused and foggy, this too is called seeing “more.” These situations also offer degrees of understanding.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 6/2/10, The Zohar