Three questions I received on dealing with fears and doubts on the path to revealing the Upper World:
Question: I have been drawn to Kabbalah for the last two years. My problem is that although I read the books you recommend and try to study, I seem to get no understanding. I worry that the Creator hasn’t opened my point in the heart. Also, when I feel as though something real might be taking place in me, some external influence takes my attention from my studies. Does this mean that this isn’t my time for drawing nearer to the Creator?
My Answer: No. You just need to:
- Accumulate inside you the desire for the correct goal.
- Realize that you cannot correct yourself – only the Light can correct you in accordance with the goal.
This is the only way to reveal the Upper World. It takes time and a certain amount of effort and experience. Concerning the efforts, it is written that you have to be “As an ox to the burden and as a donkey to the load,” and “Know that it’s not up to you to complete this work, but you are also not free to leave it.”
If you accept these conditions for changing your nature, then you will attain the goal. You will reveal the Upper World inside the property of bestowal, and then you’ll discover that our entire world is but a small, insignificant dimension.
Question: Is crossing the Machsom the most difficult part in the spiritual ascent? Once you cross over, is the process accelerated?
My Answer: Yes, it is accelerated by many times, and this happens clearly in your perception and awareness.
Question: Rav, I’ve read that as one studies Kabbalah, he is shown his egoistic side and that as the Creator wants someone to advance, His blows against him are harder and harder.
In the past few months, my “luck” (for lack of a better term) has gotten much worse. What is the Creator telling me? That I am not putting enough effort into Kabbalah? I feel beaten down. My only consolation is that maybe, just maybe, this is the precursor to the Creator correcting my egoism. But what if I’m wrong? I think we are all here studying Kabbalah because of the promise of the reward, but am I doing something wrong to be on such a path of pain while trying to reach the goal of correction?
My Answer: You must read the Shamati articles immediately. Precisely your current state will help you understand what the Creator wants from you.
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