Question: Can I also be the host who receives guests like the Creator, or will I always remain a guest?
Answer: You will never be able to be the first. You will only be able to respond, to be grateful, and to ask, and by that develop yourself. You cannot rise above Him, of course, and you don’t want to do so either.
There are situations in which you feel that you are Pharaoh and you ask yourself “Who is the Lord that I should listen to Him?” But when you attain the spiritual levels in your spiritual work, you decide that you want to annul and subdue yourself.
All the spiritual actions come after the level of Hafetz Hesed, to bestow in order to bestow. Moses advances first and then the whole nation follows, which means all of our other attributes.
This order must be kept. Otherwise, as the Torah tells us, the sinners emerge one by one, rebelling against Moses and bringing about unpleasant situations. Thus we learn that only Moses can lead. This study is necessary in order to clarify all these discernments: the sons of Aaron, the spies, etc.
This is all necessary in order to raise the level of Moses further since he is humble and cannot magnify himself. So he actually needs such adversaries that would raise him. The shells emerge, and as a result of clarifying, we discover that Moses is above them, that the attribute of bestowal dominates them all; it dominates by its humbleness, by its modesty.
When we complete the level of Bina we learn how to use our desire to enjoy correctly, as it says: “Following humbleness comes the fear of the Lord.”
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 9/11/13, Writings of Baal HaSulam