“Song of Songs,” 2:3: The upper world is built precisely above the emotion in the desire to receive which is called the feeling of “this world.” Seemingly, these two worlds stand one on top of the other; the world below is found within the desire to receive where I feel the evil.
After that, I build a good relationship with the Creator in spite of the unpleasant feeling. Then the feeling of the upper world that I constructed within my relationship with the Creator, the feeling of the connection with Him, begins to dominate the feeling of darkness, evil, and emptiness within the desire to receive so much that this emptiness becomes desirable to me.
Every time I discover a greater and greater desire to receive and the feeling in it is less and less pleasant, then above this I immediately build a better relationship with the Creator. And so it is until I discover all of my Malchut, all of the immense desire to receive, and above it I build a relationship with the Creator, the Good Who does good.
And since my egoistic desire becomes emptier all the time, it follows that I build the level of Bina, Hafetz Hesed (Desired Mercy). I don’t need anything for my ego, I don’t even need a shirt. I don’t need anything, no covering for my desire to receive, I am left naked of everything, and above all this, I build my good relationship with the Creator. This is called the level of Bina, Hassadim (Charity).
And after this I begin to receive all kinds of delights in this empty desire. It is as if I returned to the suffering through which I had already passed and build above it a level of bestowal to the Creator, a good relationship with Him, where I discover my empty desires. Now I work with these desires with the intention to bestow. All the evil that I felt then, over which I built a good relationship to the Creator, now transforms into goodness.
I understand that from the start the Creator sent me only goodness, but I felt it as evil because I received it with the wrong intention like a little child who doesn’t listen to his mother and screams that she is bad. The mother does everything for his good but he perceives it as bad since he doesn’t know, doesn’t understand, and doesn’t identify with her intention.
So it is the same with us like children who grow and became wiser, we begin to accept a good relationship with the Creator and feel great delight in it as His love is now revealed to us. But we must transform this relationship into love for Him.
These states are very difficult and demand great efforts, a level of complete faith in which the Light of Hassadim is filled with the illumination of Hochma, and we begin to work with the 613 desires to receive of the AHP. This process through which we are now passing is specifically written about in the “Song of Songs” (2:3): I delight in His shadow and sit, and His fruit is sweet to my palate. We receive only sweet fruits from the Creator, the fruits of the Tree of Life, and after that everything depends on how we perceive this gift.
So let us feel that even now we are found under the Creator’s good supervision, and with the help of the environment, we must see Him as the Good Who does good at each and every moment. If moments arrive which we do not attribute to the Creator and we are detached from Him, then we do not believe that everything comes from the Creator; this is forbidden. First of all, it is necessary to relate all that happens to Him, there is none else besides Him. And after I attribute everything to the Creator and understand that everything comes from Him, then it is necessary to work on the feeling that He is always the Good Who does good to both the good and bad.
In other words, all the thoughts we have which are either good or bad do not matter to Him. The Creator always relates to us with good; it doesn’t matter what the situation is. But we must work on our perception until we discover His good within us. And then all the exiles, emptiness, killings, the Holocaust, all the disasters that we have been through will be transformed thanks to our intention.
It doesn’t matter why all the bitterness and suffering happened to some people or the supposedly accidental events occurred. Everything must be attributed to the Creator and felt as though these were the best events of our lives. After all, this was the result of His intentional help, the right relationship with us from the beginning of creation until its end. This is called the right work with the shadows.
From the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 8/6/13, Shamati #8 “What Is the Difference Between a Shade of Kedusha and a Shade of Sitra Achra”