If I suddenly drop out from the ten and feel discomfort and shame, can this state be called hell, from which I will later be able to feel the taste of bestowal unto the group, or is it just a preparation for more serious emotions?
Answer: We can say that it is hell to some extent. Of course there is what we call more serious levels later on, and you are yet to be “fried” with shame. But it is a good thing.
Believe me, I have been in this line for 40 years and it is still a wonderful page in my life, my whole life in fact, and I don’t regret it at all. I am over 70 and many of my friends I studied with at university or had been in touch with have already passed away. But I don’t think that my fate is worse than theirs.
Do not turn down an opportunity to get closer to the upper laws, to the upper world. After all, you do understand that it is for good. Each day that you invest is an investment in your general spiritual savings account. It is saved for everyone and enters each one’s soul specifically. So do not underestimate any single lesson or any group activity, but carry on and advance.
From KabTV’s “Fundamentals of Kabbalah” 6/23/19