Question: In the beginning everything was clear to me, everything went smoothly, right on track. But then the Creator confused everything to such an extent that my decisions change every second, even with very important decisions in life. What is this and what is it for?
Answer: In principle, you can actually arrange everything like on shelves, and it is not very complicated. There are only two forces: the attribute of bestowal and the attribute of reception, and you are in between.
The Creator bestows upon you from top down by both the positive force and the negative force.
The negative force inherently exists in you. It is your ego—so close, so loved and familiar. It constantly pushes you to eat, sleep, drink, travel, etc. Specifically in the left line you understand the Creator, and in the right line, you don’t because the Creator has concealed this line from you. But the ego constantly hits you and there is nowhere you can escape to. You even come to listen to us.
Here you are told that there is another attribute, the attribute of bestowal, and that you can receive it from the Creator.
If you learn to enjoy bestowal instead of reception, you will have no problem at all. Just like a mother who wants to give her child everything, to constantly feed him, play with him, and take care of him. The child feels pleasure, and she doesn’t need anything else but to be able to take care of her child all the time.
So the only thing we have to do is to reach a state in which we will manage to give everything of ourselves and at the same time enjoy the giving, the bestowal. Then we will have no problems.
The wisdom of Kabbalah is called the concealed wisdom because we cannot understand it immediately. But it is possible. The moment you begin to bestow, you begin to feel not yourself within yourself but what is happening outside of you. And outside is the eternal, perfect upper world.
We do not feel it at all because we are in a shell, isolated from it. Our only problem is to acquire the attribute of bestowal. Then we will begin to feel not our “I” but the upper world.
We will gradually get used to this idea. All religions and all spiritual practices say that if spirituality exists, it exists outside of a person, outside of us, outside of my “I.” This is the state we must attain.
It is not complicated. We just need to perceive the method correctly, clearly grasp the method, click the right spot, and that’s it! We are very close to it.
From KabTV’s “Fundamentals of Kabbalah” 4/7/19