Question: Why did the authors of The Book of Zohar first have a desire to kill each other?
Answer: Because in the course of their work they revealed their true essence: how torn apart and disconnected they were and how they hated each other.
We do not yet represent the egoism that exists in each of us. It is a terrible egoism when there is no mother, no father, no wife, no children, no one, and nothing for me. For the sake of my most scanty pleasure, I am ready to destroy everyone, without regrets, without any calculations, just like that.
That is, I do not have any relationship with the others, I cannot see others, except for the sake of my own petty pleasure. This is my nature, as well as everyone else’s. Anyone who denies this simply does not yet understand how he was created.
Therefore, first of all, we need to achieve this negative state. As it is said: “I created egoism and created the Torah to correct it.”
Question: It seems strange. After all, if I move toward the Creator, shouldn’t I feel more and more love and certainly not hatred for my friends?
Answer: You begin to reveal more and more egoism in yourself, and thanks to this you rise above it. On one hand, you need great egoism, on the other hand, a greater influence of the light, with the help of which you constantly rise above it.
The ego grows, and you rise above it. Thus, starting at the foot of the broken “statue” that you are rebuilding, you go up to its head. The material is added, egoism is added, and you glue it more and more.
You find yourself in this statue, connected with the rest of the souls into one single whole, into one single organism, where everything is mixed, and everything is common. The identification remains but such that you feel connected with everyone. Here is a paradox.
On the one hand, you feel your individuality, which consists in the fact that you are completely dissolved with everyone in one whole. In addition, the Creator binds you together. He fills you and is constantly with you.
As a result, a single whole is formed that includes you, all other souls along with you, and together with all of you—the Creator. All this is brought together so that on one hand, you can discern: this is me, this is the soul, this is the Creator, and on the other hand, everything is absolutely connected. Then you begin to feel equal to the Creator. So is each one of us.
That is, individuality does not disappear, but, on the contrary, multiplies. This is a very specific understanding. We will gradually reach it.
From KabTV’s “The Power of The Book of Zohar” #3