The great dark depths of my desire that are still unknown are called the “heart of stone,” which is revealed only as a result of my efforts. The system of Adam HaRishon (first man) committed the sin of the “Tree of Knowledge” because of the concealment of the stoney heart. It reveals itself if we advance towards adhesion. When I yearn for adhesion, I suddenly discover that I cannot do it and that it simply isn’t for me.
When I turn a reasonable amount of desires into “in order to bestow,” I discover an addition, a giant rock inside laughing at me: “You have no chance, this doesn’t affect me; you will never be able to correct me.” I cannot reach adhesion as a result. I resemble the Creator in some way, but the stoney heart doesn’t let me get near it.
This is the reason for Adam’s sin, he discovered the stoney heart, the snake, but couldn’t keep the intention of to receive in order to bestow. Therefore, we also have to clarify this state gradually in order to ultimately decide that there is no other choice and that we have to correct it. Eve also felt that this was all their work, which means that without the revelation of the sin, of the fruit, life is tasteless. She found a special force in the tree of knowledge that doesn’t exist in any of the trees in the garden.
Question: It turns out that the stoney heart is kind of a Pandora’s box. Do we discover it gradually on every level or do we discover it all at once at the end of correction?
Answer: A bit of it is revealed on every level. After all, the lowest level also includes everything in it. Infinity is revealed in it, but you perceive it according to the resolution of your screen. So you should constantly work on the sensitivity of your vessel of perception.
From the 4th part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 1/15/14, Writings of Baal HaSulam