As long as a person has not seriously begun to work, he doesn’t feel great opposition. But to the degree of advancement, and especially in the last stage when I approach the stage of the exodus from Egypt, then intense opposition from the egoistic Klipot begins, up to the 49 Gates of Impurity. It is impossible to exit Egypt unless the Klipot compel the person.
On the one hand, I feel a very great heaviness in even making one small step forward. And on the other hand, I see that if I do not make this step forward, then everything will disappear and I will lose everything. All of my effort will have been in vain, as if I hadn’t done anything.
Therefore we are obliged to strengthen the group, we are obliged to strengthen the mutual support and not fear any disturbances. For the 49 Gates of Impurity must be revealed in all of their intensity.
And there is no need to fear that the egoistic disturbances fall upon us and will weaken us. In other words, we must get up again and again. The problem is that we forget the reason for our descent and wonder why it is suddenly so bad for us, why don’t we wake up? Only yesterday I was all on fire, I worked in “high gear,” and today I woke up like a dumb animal—I don’t remember anything, don’t understand anything, and cannot think about anything. I feel tired and distracted, and don’t understand that I need to wake myself anew every day. And all the time there is another new clarification of new “Kelim” that I have not yet clarified.
And it could be that in the middle of the day suddenly some kind of unpleasant news arrives that simply stuns me. And were it not for the support of the friends and the group, I would fall. Alone it is impossible to hold onto something like this if the balance of forces tips in the direction of the bad. The group needs to nourish the person all the time with renewed excitement and awakening. It must become a source for the spirit of life.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 10/30/13, Writings of Rabash