Question: What is the path of the Light and the path of suffering? What is this suffering for? Is it our egoism?
Answer: Undoubtedly, we experience suffering in our will to receive pleasure. However, pain can be felt even in the will to bestow. It all depends on how you define suffering.
Imagine, if you will, that I found Kabbalah, entered the group, and studied for a long time. But in the end, I suddenly won a multi-million dollar lottery! Now, my life has changed. Is it, in your opinion, the path of the Light or the path of suffering?
I can call it a path of suffering because now this money confuses me, and I don’t know what to do with it. I was thinking only about Kabbalah, but at this point, I have to think about the money since it is such an enormous sum. In what do I invest it so that it doesn’t devalue? How do I use it correctly?
As it turns out, this is the path of suffering since instead of advancing in a smooth, simple, and straight way, I am swayed off the path to go around, make a long loop. Whether I like it or not, I have to become involved in material matters, giving it my time and loading my mind with these thoughts. I cannot break away from it, and it is a huge problem which is a true pain where the desire to bestow and the spiritual goal are concerned.
As to the will to receive pleasure, you ought to say that it is the path of the Light and that you have received a reward for your righteous work. You think that it is a blessing sent to you from Above. Therefore, everything depends on which scale you use to measure it, from what have you chosen to receive pleasure.
From the 4th part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 2/18/2011, “The Freedom”