Talks about the Steps of the Ladder, Part 195
Talks about the Steps of the Ladder, Part 195
Chapter 19. Fear and Joy
Fear and joy are opposites. How can they be connected? Baal HaSulam writes in the Introduction to The Book of Zohar that the first action, the first correction, is called “fear.” There are commandments of the Torah, which are commands of the light, commands of correction, and which form the path that ascends from this world to the end of correction. This path is divided into corrections. The first correction we must attain is fear.
The Zohar asks, if the Creator is good, perfect, does good, and exists above any self-consideration, then why should a person fear Him? In this world, fear is usually attained through force. Indeed, it seems unfitting for the Creator, who is absolutely perfect, to demand fear.
The Zohar then explains that there is a type of fear called “fear of this world,” where we are afraid of punishment that could come upon us or our family in this world. Then there is fear of punishment in the next world, a higher level of punishment (and fear), but one that is still punishment. Later, when we correct our vessels into those of bestowal and acquire a screen (Masach), we completely stop fearing the Creator because we see that everything is good and does good. The Creator becomes revealed, and we understand that our previous fear of punishment did not stem from the Creator’s ability to punish, but from our own uncorrected vessels.
In truth, punishment from above is nonexistent. The only punishment is disconnection from the Creator. Then, we reach a different kind of fear, one that is related to bestowal: the fear of not being able to bestow. This fear itself is a correction. It enables us to build vessels of bestowal from our soul. Then, within the revelation of this fear, we receive fulfillment called “love.” Love is a result of fear. The greater our fear of being unable to bestow, the more the upper light fills us and brings the sensation of love, equivalence of form, connection, and adhesion (Dvekut) with the Creator.
Therefore, fear is a correction. Since we are initially made of a will to receive and this will must be aimed in order to bestow, otherwise we cannot feel pleasure, the correction lies in vessels of bestowal, or what is called “fear of the Creator.”
What does it mean that the correction must be fear, vessels of bestowal? If we receive pleasure in the will to receive, the pleasure immediately cancels the desire. For example, when one begins eating while hungry, the food is tasty and enjoyable. But as one continues to eat more and more, the pleasure diminishes, even if the food is the most delicious. Even exquisite delicacies will not add to the pleasure felt in the first bite. This is because the pleasure that enters fills the will to receive and cancels the lack.
Therefore, it is impossible to be both completely full and satisfied, meaning enjoying one hundred percent, and still feel pleasure. Once the vessel reaches saturation, it stops sensing fulfillment. This can also be seen when we yearn for, dream about, and pursue something for a long time, yet soon after we attain it, it loses its taste and feels ordinary. This does not have to do with time. Instead, the pleasure filled the vessel, and the lack, i.e., the hunger and the appetite, disappeared.
For pleasure not to be accidental, temporary, and fleeting, but eternal, it needs to grow along with the fulfillment and not disappear. As fulfillment increases, pleasure must increase as well, so that they support each other’s growth. How can we achieve this? We can achieve this by transforming our vessels into those of bestowal. That is, if we add an intention to bestow to the will to receive, the vessel attains a status above time and space. Then, even when the lack becomes filled, when the “stomach” is full, if the intention is to bestow, the more we become filled, the more we give, and the desire to give continues to grow.
“Above time” means that as we are filled more and more, our lack, appetite, and hunger do not diminish but increase, because we can give more. Therefore, we need to add intention to the will to receive. This intention makes the will to receive eternal. It does not vanish before the light that fills it, but instead it becomes eternal like the light itself when equipped with the intention to bestow.
This is the whole essence of the wisdom of Kabbalah—knowing how to receive. If we learn how to do this correctly, we begin to receive incessant pleasures and ascend from level to level, from strength to strength. We acquire more lack, correct it further with the intention to bestow, fill it more, and again increase the lack, and so on, progressing until we reach unlimited fulfillment, which is called “the end of correction.”
The end of correction does not grant the vessel a fixed capacity. If the vessel had a fixed capacity, it would cease to enjoy, even in order to bestow. Fixed bestowal cannot exist. On the contrary, bestowal must constantly grow, otherwise it is not bestowal. Therefore, we reach a state called “Ein Sof” (“infinity,” or literally, “without end”). In Ein Sof, we can expand our vessels unboundedly, along with intentions and fulfillment.
Then we arrive at true fear, which is the question of whether we can bestow. That is, as more deficiencies are added, can we establish a screen over them in order to bestow and through it receive in order to bestow?
This is the essence of true fear. As a result, we receive fulfillment from above, the light of the Torah. When the light of the Torah fills this fear, together they create a sensation called “the joy of the Torah,” a feeling of joy. By correcting our vessels, we receive fulfillment, the upper light called “Torah,” and reach joy.
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