When I conduct a lesson, on one hand I am just a robot, on the other hand an “angel.” If you ask me if I would want to go out to a lesson every morning, I would answer: “No.”

I would prefer to do something else: I have things to write and talk about, interesting material to process.

I would like to give myself, perhaps, a vacation, to isolate somewhere far away, wander in nature and think about something of my own. But I am absolutely clear that I have no right to do so. That is, importance for me is the same as importance for others.

When you are in one connection, in one system with others, you cannot divide, whether it is better for you or better for them, or worse for you or worse for them. It is a common plate from which you all receive and fill up together.

Of course, strength comes from above, not from me. There is no heroism in a person; it is all arranged by the Creator.

I remember my teacher, who with difficulty, literally on all fours, would go to the lesson. How hard it was for him! Tired, eyes closing. At that time he was already 84 years old. I would prepare him strong coffee, cold water, and try to cheer him up somehow.

We would go down to the lesson with him, I would sit next to him, light a cigarette for him, serve him coffee, turn on the tape recorder, and I would see him come to life, simply come to life. For him, words were like tubes through which life-giving force would come to him. I saw how he would say “Ah!” and come to life, and in five to ten minutes, we would see a completely different person, who was already flying.

Of course, these are not one’s own forces, but the upper light that holds us.

Therefore I cannot attribute anything I do to myself; there is nothing of mine here, no merit of my own. When we will reveal the upper world, we will see that we have absolutely nothing to do with it. It is not you, nor anyone else, but the manifestation of a created desire that feels this way right now.

And then all these sensations: I, the others, he, we, all doubts, internal collisions, and fluctuations merge into one single whole when “There is none else besides Him,” besides the Creator. And it becomes absolutely clear to a person that he has nothing to do with any of it at all, neither good nor bad.

Therefore, to make yourself so transparent that you fulfill the upper will is the most reliable approach during the lesson. These are immense internal sufferings, doubts, mutual attacks of egoism against something else.

Gradually you reveal within yourself an even greater egoism and even greater evasions and justifications. It is natural. But this is precisely the opportunity to delve even deeper, and there, at the very depth, to discover the Creator Himself.

Question: What then is your choice?

Answer: To be like this, and nothing more, that is, absolutely transparent, non-existent. This is what complete merging entails, but it is achieved above egoism, which does not disappear.
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From KabTV’s “I Got A Call. The Energy of the Crowd” 5/27/10

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