Comment: I have been studying with you for many years, but something inside me resists fully entering the group.
Answer: It is not “something.” It is your ego, your pride. Try to set a goal for yourself and dissolve in the group at least once.
You will feel and know what it means when “I do not exist.” The moment you do not exist, you will begin to feel the upper world and the Creator.
From KabTV’s “Fundamentals of Kabbalah” 12/2/18