Comment: I often see myself as if from the outside. Sometimes I feel fear, joy, or concern. I have the feeling that it is not me. It is as if I am observing myself: now I am afraid and shaking, now I strongly desire something.
My Response: This is wonderful! You have been taught who you really are: good, wicked, afraid, or the opposite. But actually, none of those are you.
You have been shown how all kinds of feelings change in you from minus to plus, in both directions. As a result, you begin to attain yourself, meaning, the one who is behind these sensations. This revelation is yet to come, but it is already a move in the right direction.
So, good luck! Keep going.
From KabTV’s “Fundamentals of Kabbalah” 12/15/19