Answer: I don’t know. Try to quit. If it works—fine. If it doesn’t work, then make the final decision and come back. It is useless to run back and forth, study a little, and let go for some time. I would like to make it sharp: it is not worth it. It is no use starting, getting disappointed, and blaming Kabbalah instead of correcting yourself.
Studying the wisdom of Kabbalah has certain conditions. If you want to get into it, you must meet these conditions. If not, you should quit it, the sooner—the better.
Remark: But I have a feeling that if I do not study Kabbalah, the Creator will punish me.
Answer: There is nothing to fear! The Creator never punishes anybody for anything.
But you have a great opportunity to discover the upper world. Is it really not worth it?! What do you have in this world?! Another 20, 30, 40 years will pass… and that is all!
And here eternity is opening in front of you. You do not feel how you move from one world to another. You drop your body like a rocket drops its stages, and you keep flying.
From the Kabbalah Lesson in Russian 12/11/16