Torah, Deuteronomy 21:01 – 21:04: If a slain person be found in the land which the Lord, your God is giving you to possess, lying in the field, [and] it is not known who slew him, then your elders and judges shall go forth, and they shall measure to the cities around the corpse.
And it will be, [that from] the city closer to the corpse, the elders of that city shall take a calf with which work has never been done, [and] that has never drawn a yoke, and the elders of that city shall bring the calf down to a rugged valley, which was neither tilled nor sown, and there in the valley, they shall decapitate the calf.
Since the Torah speaks only about our internal actions, here it talks about finding in yourself the person killed by you. By working on yourself, you gradually grow from the animal state. Therefore, you take from your quality an animal state that is the closest to a “slain person,” a calf, and decapitate it with a stone.
A calf is identified with the quality of Bina, with milk, and with the quality of bestowal. A stone is Lev haEven (stony heart), the heaviest egoism that is impossible to correct. In other words, you must perform an action when your indomitable egoism in its lowest form decapitates the calf that gives life, meaning milk, what is called the Light of Hassadim.
By this you perform a spiritual action in our world, and by doing so, you atone the killing of a person in you. The recognition of evil that you performed, by killing a germ of the future person in you, serves you as a starting point for the further rise.
I stopped here only on a few reference points. In fact, everything is not simple at all. It is described in the form of an instruction in the Torah and it is unclear how it can be deciphered. It requires the entire wisdom of Kabbalah.
It turns out that you kill a quality of bestowal in yourself, perform the sententious action, as if you are told, “You can’t imagine whom you killed in yourself! And now do it consciously. At the level of human, you didn’t see and couldn’t understand that you were killing a person in you, but on the animate level, you can determine this. So, kill.”
This is a very deep internal action when you force your egoism to kill the animal life familiar to you. You kill the root, from which the human killed by you was supposed to grow and now you can start acting.
This is a great internal drama and an act of inner self-observation.
From KabTV’s “Secrets of the Eternal Book” 9/21/16