And they took their journey from Elim, and all the congregation of the children of Israel came unto the wilderness of Sin, which is between Elim and Sinai, on the fifteenth day of the second month after their departing out of the land of Egypt.
And the whole congregation of the children of Israel murmured against Moses and against Aaron in the wilderness; and the children of Israel said unto them: ‘Would that we had died by the hand of the LORD in the land of Egypt, when we sat by the flesh-pots, when we did eat bread to the full; for ye have brought us forth into this wilderness, to kill this whole assembly with hunger.’ (The Torah, Exodus, BeShalach, 16:1 – 16:3)
The sons of Israel came out of Egypt. They broke out of their egoism, and after going through all the vicissitudes, rose to the level of “Elim,” to the level of Bina. “Elim” is from the word “El”, which means “God,” the “Creator”.
And then they came to the wilderness of Sin (“Sina” means “hatred” in Hebrew), meaning that they fell into hatred, in the renewal of egoism, and approached Mount Sinai, the main point of the manifestations of ego. Naturally, they started to complain because everything that they went through, both good and bad, at their current level is felt as something unbearable! In this state, a person cannot tolerate the egoism that has grown in him: It’s better to perish or disappear than to feel such hatred.
We are talking about a completely different feeling of egoism. They went through all the separations from Egypt, and now they are starting to see everything in the correct form. “Mount Sinai” represents a person’s inner state, their internal geography. Due to the fact that a person has passed through all the stages (learned, saw, became convinced, felt himself, the others, the relationships between people), he finds himself in such a state where he cannot bear his hatred of others. He would rather disappear than experience this feeling towards them.
That is why the people of Israel prefer to go back to any other state, rather than feel that attitude and see themselves in it. This is a good feeling; it’s movement forward.
From KabTV’s “Secrets of the Eternal Book” 2/4/13