It is said that the upper Light is in complete rest and we lack only the vessels, the appropriate desire in order to reveal it. The desire must fit exactly to one of the five degrees of the upper Light: Nefesh, Ruach, Neshama, Haya, Yechida. In the same measurement that the desire changes from one degree to the other, it reveals a new fulfillment.
The desire must match the filling in quantity and also in quality, and this is all our work. And in the Light itself, there is no change. It doesn’t have the Light of NRNHY (Nefesh Ruach, Neshama, Haya, Yechida.). About the Light that did not clothe yet in the vessels, one cannot say anything. This is an abstract form that nothing is known about it. We are able to talk about only what is clothed in us and not even on the one that clothes us, but only how we feel the clothing in us.
We already feel it according to our deficiency, to our desire, and this phenomenon is called “Ohr,” Light, similar to the light of the sun as some kind of pleasant feeling. Therefore, all our work is in attaining the deficiency that is called “the gate of tears.”
This is a deficiency that I don’t have any control of. I invested a lot of effort, I did everything possible, I achieved a size of a great desire, and I see that its fulfillment is not dependent on me because if it weree dependent on me, this would not have been called deficiency, I would simply continue to work. A strong deficiency means that I don’t have any ability to realize it.
I want very much to realize it 100% and I know 100% that it is not in my powers. This point where the desirable and the actual meet is called the gate of tears. One despairs 100% from his own forces, but is not able to leave the desirable goal because it is the only thing important for him in his life.
All our work is to reach this point. Certainly, we are built in a way that everyone is included in everyone. Therefore, without mutual work and integration, it is impossible to attain such a state. Only intensive work in the group, in one direction, will bring a result, and then this gate will be opened. And all the rest of the desires in their form and in their qualities do not fit the spiritual revelation.
Preparation for the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 1/30/13