In my material life I generally act in my own interests rather than the common good; primarily, I think about my own benefit, rather than about relatives or friends. To what extent do I see this as evil? Only to the degree that it is revealed to me. If it were not revealed, I would not see it. And had even more been revealed, I would not have been able to bear it, I would jump out of my skin, somehow break out of myself, just to leave all these qualities behind. But even this is not given.

Perhaps if I were granted such a revelation just once, no matter how agonizing it might be to endure (and it would be sheer hell), I would cry out with such intensity that I would be liberated of these qualities. But again, it is not granted. It is as if I am being kept over a low flame, constantly being turned from one side to the other; this is what is happening to me in this life.

This gives rise to the question: How will this end? I am granted a glimpse, a small revelation, of who I am, but this is not enough to enable me to break free from this state. On the one hand, it no longer lets me live the “good” material life that I once had when I busied myself with all sorts of nonsense and thought that, that was what life was about.

“Let them allow me to come into the spiritual realm already! Let me go through this stage, this period of suffering that is caused by my own nature and want another one, to reach a state when I am not in an intention for the sake of receiving. Perhaps that is the way? Let it be revealed to me! Yes, this period may be hard until I perceive and feel the suffering from what I have compared to what the Creator has. It seems this contrast is difficult to sense clearly,  but I have to go through this stage, and that is all.”

If a person makes decisions of this kind, then he is already on the right track, since he shows his readiness to tackle this situation as quickly as possible and move through it, rather than remaining suspended between heaven and earth. And here he needs those who will support him, the Creator and the group, in order to apply the required sum of efforts and quickly pass through this stage.

But each time you experience a particular state, whether you feel good or not so good, and sometimes very bad because you are using others, this is not under your control. Rather it is a means for a glimpse of the truth to be revealed to you. Based on what happens to you, each time ask yourself the question of who benefits from this. In other words, what is the Creator doing with me? What does He want from me by this?
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From the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 3/16/26, Rabash, “What Is, ‘The Good Deeds of the Righteous Are the Generations,’ in the Work?”

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