Baal HaSulam, Letter 19: “In the same woman…” “…grace is deceitful and beauty is vain; but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised.” This means that during the preparation, the beauty and grace appear and the essence of perfection that one yearns and longs for. However, at the time of correction, when “the earth shall be full of the knowledge of the Lord,” then, “I shall see an opposite world,” because only fear and longing are the essence of the desired perfection. Then one feels that during the time of preparation, one was lying to oneself.
Question: Why is it said that during the time of preparation we are lying to ourselves?
Answer: It is so because I was longing for something which was a lie. And while suffering, I didn’t realize that this suffering was indeed fulfillment. It means that as soon as I change my attitude toward the desired, I discover that I am in the world of Infinity. It is regarded as “you will eat what is old.” I reveal an infinite fulfillment in my present state.
It is described that previously you were lying to yourself, thinking that you don’t have the desired fulfillment and you need to achieve it. But you don’t have to achieve anything except for the correction of your desires. You are already in the same perfect condition and only cannot see it since you lack the properties of perception, the corrected desires.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 5/1/2011, Baal HaSulam’s Letter 19