Answer: You can maintain yourself on the path solely by way of the Kabbalistic group. Without it, you have no chance to advance and stay on this path not only for years, but even until the next day.
If you can maintain the desire and keep studying without receiving support from the group, you are on the wrong path and are deceiving yourself. You are probably studying to gain knowledge or to reach some other egoistic goal, but you are not moving in the right direction.
Think what you are counting: the calendar years or the effort you have exerted? You may have made the right effort worth a couple of weeks instead of 35 years. How many hundreds of years will you have to live in this world to accumulate effort worth three to five years?
But you can really finish this work in three to five years and reveal the spiritual world on the condition that you are working with the group, with the environment. Cultivate your desire to enjoy in the right atmosphere, on the right ground. Otherwise, it won’t evolve, and you will sit and study without the support of the environment, counting the hours by the clock. But this is the wrong clock: It doesn’t count your work with the environment and, hence, has no value.
You must spend these years under the influence of the environment, and it isn’t necessary to wait five calendar years for that; it isn’t the question of time. But if you are not under such influence, then you haven’t even started to advance yet. So what result do you expect in five years?
It’s really simple to verify whether you are receiving the strength from the environment. Without the environment’s force, you would have no strength at all and it would be as if you were dead. And only when you receive the strength from the group do you have the capacity to rise, come to study, read the Kabbalistic texts, and think. It is similar to an electrical system: If it receives a little electricity, it starts working, while without electricity, it stops. And this electricity can come solely from the environment.
The spiritual Kli (vessel) is namely the connection with the environment which is precisely the place where I reveal the spiritual world. And if such connection is missing, there is no place to discover spirituality.
From the 4th part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 2/6/2011, “The Essence of the Wisdom of Kabbalah”