The Torah Develops the Recognition of Evil in a Person
According to the above, we can see that since he had learned a lot of Torah [in order to draw the reforming Light], through it he was granted seeing the truth about the distance between himself and the Creator, meaning the measure of his remoteness and nearness. This is the meaning of his mind being crude, meaning that he saw the complete form of one who is proud, which is his will to receive, and then he could see the truth that it was he who was most ugly. How did he see the truth? By learning much Torah.
Thus, how will he be able to cleave to Him, since he is such an ugly [egoistic] person? This is the reason why he asked if all the people were as ugly [horrible egoists] as him, or that he was the only ugly one but the rest of the people in the world were not ugly.
What was the answer [that he felt]? “I don’t know.” It means that that they do not feel, hence they do not know. And why do they not feel? It is for the simple reason that they were not rewarded with seeing the truth since they lack Torah [did not attract enough Light that Reforms upon themselves], so the Torah will show them the truth.
To that Elijah replied to him [he heard Elijah’s answer]: “Go to the craftsman who made me” because he saw that he had come into a state from which he could not ascend. For this reason Elijah appeared and told him, “go to the craftsman who made me.” In other words, since the Creator created you so ugly, He must have known that it is with these Kelim (vessels) that the goal can be achieved. So do not worry, go forward and succeed.
– Baal HaSulam, Shamati, Article #56 “Torah is Called Indication”