Question: You said that the closer I come to the Creator, the more I hate Him as the property of bestowal which is opposite to me. At the same time, I become more and more distant from what I am and feel greater heaviness. How do I solve this problem?
Answer: The solution is in raising the importance of adhesion with the Creator. Then, if I change my values so that the adhesion becomes the most important for me, I go through a sudden inner revolution, like a fetus that turns over before birth with its head pointing down.
Suddenly, I begin to reveal that all the opposing properties, such as hate, repulsion, and alienation are new and correct Kelim (vessels), desires for love and adhesion. Where else can I reveal love? How many years did it take me to be with You? How many highs and lows did I go through to reach You? Love can’t be measured otherwise.
Therefore, if I begin to realize that adhesion is the goal. From that standpoint, I look at all the failures, disappointments, and hardships along the way, at the great burdens and interferences as Kelim without which it’s impossible to achieve love and adhesion.
That is precisely the revelation we achieve on the path. After all, now we don’t have even one gram of Kli to unite with the Creator. You haven’t felt any difficulty in approaching Him. We have yet to reveal it.
From the 2nd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 12/20/10, Talmud Eser Sefirot