It is said, “I cannot dwell in the same place with the proud.” Where there is pride, there can be no Light.
At first, a guest treats himself with food from the Host’s table; he doesn’t feel or see that the Host exists. Suddenly he discovers that the Host does exist, and the dishes he treats himself to come from His table with everything belonging to the Host. A guest also learns that the dishes on the table were not put there by chance; rather, they were prepared specifically for him with love. He sees that the Host loves him and has to respond to Him in some way. This is why he becomes incapable of receiving from Him. He doesn’t know what to do!
The problem is not in receiving, but in the relationship itself. I don’t want to feel indebted, nor do I want to be in a place where I’m loved or hated too much. Moreover, a surplus of love is a hindrance since there is nothing I can repay or return for it.
How can I repay Him for the love I’ve received? I can accept enjoyment from Him, but it’s my animate part that receives pleasure, and yet His love is directed at the human being in me! What should I do? Through this, He forces me to relate to Him with all my heart. I either have to stop visiting Him or think of a way to repay Him.
Therefore, I separate myself from Him with pride, using it as a barrier. I rise above His attitude towards me, above hatred and love as if they don’t exist. It operates in me like a protective force, a self-defense that allows me to not feel shame or love.
Pride originates from the vacant space within creation and stems from the Serpent, Malchut of the World of Infinity. All other properties can be corrected except for pride because it separates us from the Creator, breaks the connection with Him.
If I am in a group, everything is permissible (conflicts and so on) except pride. By being proud, a person cuts off the influence of his surroundings and thereby has no chance to advance.
From the 4th part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 7/14/10, “Introduction to the Book, Panim Meirot uMasbirot”