Introduction to the Study of the Ten Sefirot, Item 58: With this we understand the words of our sages: that one who repents from fear is rewarded with his sins becoming mistakes. …the sins one makes extend to him from the reception of Providence through double concealment, namely concealment within concealment….
One concealment means that he believes in the Providence of reward and punishment. Yet, because of the accumulation of suffering, he sometimes comes to thoughts of transgression.
Why did a person make a mistake? It’s because he didn’t see that he was at fault. Yet he wasn’t even supposed to see it, was he? Our entire work amounts to acquiring a new vision by faith above reason. Thus, at the beginning, we do not perceive spirituality so that later we could see it in the light of bestowal. Spirituality cannot be seen in the egoistic light.
Nobody concealed spirituality or fenced it off from us. We hide it from ourselves by our egoistic desire. That’s why we start perceiving spirituality only by rising above our egoism. It’s similar to me facing a wall, a barrier. By rising above it, I can have a glimpse of what lies beyond it.
This is how we can picture to ourselves what faith above reason is. While I’m “within reason,” below the barrier, I cannot see the spiritual world. My organs of perception are different; meanwhile, I have to start perceiving the reality in the desires to bestow. When the Reflected Light shines upon me, it reveals to me the spiritual reality, which I can see in this Light.
That’s why naturally I erred and committed crimes while not seeing spirituality. How could I not have erred? However, why aren’t they called “transgressions”? That’s because thanks to revealing and correcting my mistakes, I corrected myself. In this way, I reached the degree of “repentance from fear,” that is, I built the screen for bestowing in order to bestow.
I learned from my mistakes for it’s impossible to correct anything until one reveals the entire evil of egoistic desire. This is called identifying a mistake. By correcting a certain measure of the mistake that has been revealed to me, I perform a commandment.
Hence, upon completing one’s repentance, one corrects all of his mistakes. It’s precisely because of them and thanks to them that he reaches bestowal. All of these errors were the result of concealment.
From the 3rd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 6/13/10, Introduction to the Study of the Ten Sefirot