Living in spirituality means living with the intention to bestow. That is, the Creator gives me a Masach (screen), and this is called crossing the Machsom (barrier). Before this, I had no screen and no intention to bestow.

Now I have acquired a minimal correct intention. My will to receive together with this intention is called my first spiritual Kli. This means that I must receive a screen (Masach) from Him.

But then, what is the previous degree before receiving the screen? Obviously, the need for a screen. And since the condition for receiving anything is the existence of a desire (Kli) to receive it, it means that I need a Kli for the screen, a need for a screen.

What should the need for a screen be? Can I now imagine a situation in which I need a screen? Let me take a step back. To have a need for a screen, I need to know what I will get out of it, what I stand to gain through the screen.

What will I receive through the screen when I act for the sake of bestowal? When I see the Creator, that is, not that I see Him and enjoy Him, but I see that I bestow upon Him, while at the same time what I bestow upon Him is not a form of personal gain; otherwise my action would be impure. Acting for the sake of bestowal means bestowing upon Him without even feeling Him, without having any revelation, but simply being aware of myself as bestowing.

There are many more subtleties within this, but in the end, I come to a state in which I need some simple force that is completely absent in me now. The question is, can I have a desire for it?

If I examine what a true desire for a screen is, then I probably will not find such a desire in myself. Perhaps I do not want the screen itself at all, nor what it will give me in the spiritual world: pure bestowal without any connection to me. I still cannot sense these definitions (Avchanot), because they are completely detached from my reality.

I can only speak about it, but this gives me nothing! After all, this is not a prayer from the depth of desire. A deep desire is a desire that exists even before it is recognized and expressed in words. Obviously, I cannot arrive at this, but I can arrive at some states of despair around it.

So let’s proceed in this way. Let us clarify exactly what I can clarify within my will to receive, and do so in such a way that it would be the maximum of what I am capable of before the barrier. This is similar to what precedes the final correction (Gmar Tikun), when we can examine absolutely everything: Galgalta ve Eynaim, GE in AHP, AHP in GE, every property without exception, except for the “stony heart” (Lev HaEven).

It is as if I had a bone with meat on it, and I ate all the meat, leaving a clean, polished bone. In this way I clarify what is “yes” and what is “no”!
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From the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 7/30/26, Rabash, “What Does It Mean that Oil Is Called ‘Good Deeds’ in the Work?”

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