He [the Creator] wants me to feel my state as I do, [not good, deficient, bad, painful, and sick] and for myself, I do not care how I feel myself because I want to work in order to bestow.

Therefore, the main thing is that I need to work for the Creator (Rabash, “The Meaning of Truth and Faith”).

The main point is this: If I direct myself to what I receive from Him, then I must think and examine myself. Do I feel something unpleasant or even pain, or, on the contrary, joy? This depends only on the person.

Therefore, in our life, we can be in constant self-examination. Are we in faith, meaning in the feeling of the Creator, in some closeness, in intention toward Him, or are we merely falling into our egoism?

If I am directed toward the goal, toward the created beings, toward the ten, toward the Creator, then in any state I am in, whatever it may be, I cannot at the same time feel anything terrible, anything deficient.

I do not merely want to get through this state. I will not feel any pain in it; on the contrary, I will begin to reveal great pleasure in it. Because precisely above unpleasantness, pain, problems, fears, and darkness, I can reveal the light, my aspiration to it, and my connection with it.

Therefore, in any circumstances, I must be satisfied with my fate, my work, and my state, and regard this as my great merit that the Creator has given me an opportunity to draw closer to Him.
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From the International Kabbalah Convention 9/7/19, Moldova, Lesson 4

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