Question: The point in the heart stirs up doubt in a person: “Who and what am I? What am I living for?” Is there a point on the spiritual path when a person stops doubting the Creator and His plan, or does it accompany him until the end?
Answer: Doubts will surely continue since without them, it’s impossible to advance and examine oneself. Doubting is a state when anything is possible in any direction, when you can’t tell the angel of death from the angel of life, good from evil, and the Creator from His opposite.
On every new degree, in every state, you are supposed to pass through the states that reflect the entire path, including the worst and the best in mind and heart. Without doubting as an intermediate state, we won’t succeed.
As it is written: “And there was evening and there was morning, one day.” Each new degree begins with an evening, meaning from the blending of things that I can’t tell apart: “It looks like light, but it isn’t anymore…. It looks like I am in the dark, but it’s not that dark.” Everything is blurry before my eyes.
Hence, when you fall into confusion and doubt, you should know that a new state is approaching you: “Everything is foggy again, I forgot even the simplest things I learned, or there is nothing I can hold on to.” This is how you pass from one degree to the next. Enjoy this passage.
From the 4th part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 6/7/2011, Writings of Rabash