The difficulty lies in the fact that we have to go through the recognition of evil, confusion, followed by disappointments and corrections. A person will always be tempted to justify himself and feel in the position to decide, as if he understands what to do.
He will find a thousand citations and build an entire theory to support himself. He will whine and act up. This is why it is so difficult for us to find the truth.
It is only if a person has an aspiration for the truth, rejects hypocrisy, and seeks the truth that he will realize with increasing clarity that he has been deceiving himself in each state. Hence, he will regret it and will reform himself.
In fact, it is very challenging to enjoy the work because of its bitter taste and pointlessness from the mind’s perspective. Most importantly, we can’t find any egoistic support for it and always treat it as something silly, like clowns. We are ready to pick anything but cleaving to the Creator, the pure property of bestowal that is beyond any concern for oneself.
The Torah is divided into two parts: “servitude to the creatures” and “servitude to the Creator.” This is another obstacle on our path since we get confused as to what is primary and what is secondary in it. Usually, a person makes a mistake and becomes a slave to the creatures, meaning that he doesn’t serve them in order to come to the servitude to the Creator thereby, but simply gains egoistic fulfillment from them.
These are really simple questions, but they are impossible to explain. A person has to feel on his own how many traps are awaiting us on the path. We may find a certain niche for ourselves, a safe haven, and freeze ourselves within it for the rest of this life.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 6/20/2011, Writings of Baal HaSulam