Question: We spend our entire lives chasing the “carrot,” but we never manage to grab hold of it. So what’s the difference between chasing the “carrot” and our efforts to reveal the Creator?
Answer: If a person chases anything, “carrot” or Creator, driven by his egoistic, receiving desires, then he won’t receive either. According to the law of creation, nothing can enter the will to receive except “Kista de Hayuta” – a tiny, short-lived portion of Light, which gives us the sensation of a small, short life.
If a person desires to feel a bigger life, this is possible in a different desire. For example, I catch a fish with a fishing rod, a butterfly or bird with a net, and an animal with a trap. There is a different tool for catching each kind of animal.
Likewise, our will to enjoy is unable to feel anything more than this small, short-lived life. Something greater can only be felt in a different “trap,” which we have to build. We can only feel it in the desire to bestow.
The complaint you expressed in your question is correct. In my natural desire, I don’t have the possibility of being happy. In order to be happy, I have to replace my desire “to receive” with the desire “to bestow.” After all, the most important thing isn’t the desire, but the fulfillment.
From the 2nd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 9/15/10, The Zohar