Introduction to the Study of the Ten Sefirot, Item 40: Hence, how do you say, “labored and found”? And if there is effort here, it should have said, “labored and purchased” or “labored and acquired”… If there is effort, then shouldn’t our work result in a payment or a reward, that is, in an anticipated outcome?
In contrast, here we have a gap whereby prolonged conscious efforts are crowned with an unexpected find, a completely different result than we imagined the reward to be. It is something new and unexpected. At the same time, even if we receive it in a form of an unanticipated result, it does not disappoint us!
I labored in order to reach a certain goal, anticipating to receive an egoistic reward that I pictured to myself. By exerting effort, I acted according to my earthly mind and feeling. However, I got transformed along the way! I acquired a new desire toward bestowal which I couldn’t even picture to myself before.
The desire has changed, and so did the anticipated fulfillment. I pictured to myself reception as a reward, but it turned out that the reward is in bestowal, when the Creator is revealed within me. All of this is called a “find”: a new desire and a new Light.
From the 3rd part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 6/8/10, Introduction to the Study of the Ten Sefirot