The Torah, “Exodus” (Ki Tissa), 33:14-33:16: So He said, “My Presence will go, and I will give you rest.” And he said to Him, “If Your Presence does not go [with us], do not take us up here. For how then will it be known that I have found favor in Your eyes, I and Your people? Is it not in that You will go with us? Then I and Your people will be distinguished from every [other] nation on the face of the earth.”
The Creator has to bring everyone to the level that they resemble Him. There are no concessions.
A person has to acknowledge the fact that he cannot get rid of any of his attributes because he has to correct them all. He begins to regard the most egoistic things he reveals about himself carefully, understanding that eventually they have to be inverted. Without annulling anything, he looks straight at his inner spiritual atlas realizing that the right image of the Creator cannot be without the absolute correction of all his desires to love and bestowal.
At the same time, a person hates these attributes and despises them! He would like to erase everything, to detach himself from his past, which constantly chases him. He blames himself, the Creator, and anyone he can for what he has to go through and for the many mistakes he has made in his life! The gradual recognition that they were all necessary for the attainment of the ultimate goal, but that what was so far only needs to be corrected, and these actions are absolutely right but simply need to be inverted—this is already a great revelation for a person.
He shouldn’t blame anyone for the past, because all his sins were determined intentionally. They are in him from the start and will be revealed in even more wild manners. But they are all necessary. He is ready to undergo anything just so that he wouldn’t lose them and will be able correct everything.
Question: What gives a person to strength to reach that?
Answer: The importance of the Creator and the fact that this is the only way to delight Him. Suppose I sit at a table that the Creator has set for me, which is full of different delicacies. Every dish before me is poison: it tastes terrible, bitter, and awful! I have to change inside me so that I will feel infinite pleasure by tasting and eating something that is disgusting and at the same time feel that it is sweet because I received it from Him. Everything depends on the intention that can turn the poison into medicine.
From KabTV’s “Secrets of the Eternal Book” 9/16/13