Question: If we want to correct ourselves in order to benefit humanity, does this mean that we desire bestowal?
Answer: Yes and no. Suppose some kind of problem has come up for me and I have to correct it. I have to call a doctor or technician, or do something else. Who am I doing this for: those who have suffered or myself?
Everything depends on the circle by which we determine our boundaries. A small person is restricted to himself. One who is more developed takes his family into consideration. One who is even more developed expands this circle to neighbors, the city, the nation, the world, and finally, all reality.
If I understand that the world’s correction must happen through Israel, which exists solely for that purpose, then everything I do externally is the same as what I do for me. Moreover, if I exist in order to correct the world and this is my entire mission, then I must first correct the desires (Kelim) of the whole world, and then I will receive a response through them.
Therefore, “what I sow” is that I turn to the world, bestow to it, become permeated by its desires, and bring them to correction. Then I can hope to receive a response from the Creator to those desires. When this happens, I receive the response first because the world is only able to receive it through me.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 2/13/11, Writings of Rabash