We exist only in one state, the World of Infinity, but it is hidden from us behind 125 curtains. Beneath 125 concealments corrupted by the descent along 125 degrees, I exist in the opposite nature. But it doesn’t impact my environment in any way. Even if I do not see, feel, or act correctly, I still am present in the spiritual world and have to familiarize myself with its laws. Otherwise I will always lose.
However, since I am distanced from the World of Infinity, the spiritual system treats me accordingly. By lowering me down, the system applies the criteria that “match” me. Of course, I am opposite to bestowal, but only by 1/125th. If I were present in the World of Infinity while being totally opposite to it, I wouldn’t be able to tolerate it.
Thus, I constantly bear damages in accordance with my current state and my next degree; I feel a discrepancy (a gap) between these two states which is, in fact, a force that moves me forward. Even now the power of evil in me draws me down, and I sense alienation from spirituality. I feel bad about this world and about the fact that I haven’t climbed my spiritual first step yet.
The system of Infinity is condensed in relation to us; it reduces itself and creates concealments, meaning spiritual worlds. Due to this fact, a person, just like a child, always faces the necessity to grow. Each time he reveals separation from a higher level so that he can again apply effort and climb another degree.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 9/22/10, “The Agenda of the Assembly”