Torah, Deuteronomy 17:8 – 17:10: If a matter eludes you in judgment, between blood and blood, between judgment and judgment, or between lesion and lesion, words of dispute in your cities, then you shall rise and go up to the place the Lord, your God, chooses. And you shall come to the Levitic kohanim and to the judge who will be in those days, and you shall inquire, and they will tell you the words of judgment. And you shall do according to the word they tell you, from the place the Lord will choose, and you shall observe to do according to all they instruct you.

A person can never decide by himself how to act. The solution of the problem can be found only on the next level: either on the level of Levites (ascent to Bina), or on the level of Kohanim (ascent to Hochma). This is the only way we can accumulate strength for our own correction.

It is written: “If a matter eludes you in judgment, between blood and blood, between judgment and judgment, or between lesion and lesion…” It speaks about person’s scrutiny of his qualities; after all, he doesn’t know what drives him: correct or incorrect qualities, or correct or incorrect thoughts. It is not known where his egoism hides, how it incites him and gives him some kind of a bribe.

Therefore, each one should always rise to such a degree where he could decide his actions and intentions with the help of an external standard. A special force is required for this: the next degree, ascent to it, acceptance of its qualities and advices, so that it would change, test, and subjugate a person. Then he will be sure that he moves correctly.

We advance this way in constant contradiction “between blood and blood, between lesion and lesion.” How else? If from the beginning of creation to its full correction a person is an egoist, then every time bigger and bigger egoism is revealed in him.

Let’s say you corrected yourself by 90%, but the revealed 91% that must be corrected is bigger than all the previous ones. Therefore, you can’t rely on anything, and every time you are in absolute incomprehension, wondering, and marveling at everything that happens to you.

Every time, the unique, kind Creator completely disappears from your senses, and instead of Him, there are multitudes of all sorts of haters, traitors and evil dogs. All this you must again relate to the Creator as arising due to the lack of connection with Him. That is, these are the qualities that are specifically created in you so that you would get closer to the Creator. You have no choice.

Everything is arranged so amazingly that you unwillingly, consciously or unconsciously, or as a result of big problems, worries, sleepless nights, searches, and internal struggle with yourself finally catch the end of this thread that returns you to the uniqueness of the Creator and His absolute goodness.

Such is the way of awareness—scary on one hand and beautiful on the other hand—because you are born on the level of the Creator and become similar to Him.
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From KabTV’s “Secrets of the Eternal Book” 8/24/16

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