Question: I wish to unite but still see some personal benefit in it after all. What should I do?Answer: True, you are still living in Egypt and can’t make a different kind of calculation. All the time, just think about unity that will make you feel good.

Question cont.: But I am supposed to cancel myself.

Answer: The upper Light will do it for you. You are incapable of it. Do you really have anything good that will indeed make you lower your head and love others? Are you truly interested in that?

Ultimately, we realize that there is nothing good in us. We are absolutely incapable of doing good. Everyone is a liar and a thief; everyone is a criminal because all of us are still ruled by Pharaoh. And Pharaoh is the patron of all liars, the king of all thieves, and the godfather of all wicked egoistic world. It rules in my heart and mind and pulls all the strings.

Sometimes, when I think about my previous life, I get very surprised: “Why did I do that? What made me do it?” That’s what Pharaoh’s yoke is, which controlled me so I couldn’t do anything good. If a person saw his or her life from the point of view of the upper Light, they wouldn’t find one single illuminated instant. All of them would seem absolutely horrific.

What do we do then? Despite this, we must strive to unify between us. Exerting effort while being in egoistic bondage, I gradually evoke the Light that Reforms and thereby begin to feel that the Creator can correct my situation.

But I myself cannot. When it comes to myself, I don’t wish to build a connection with others and unify with them; I forget all about it. I don’t have any real tie that links the hearts together. However, if the upper Light descends to me, it brings me this desire and endows me with the capacity for oneness.

Let the Light work on you, exert your own efforts, thanks to which the Light will influence you and you will change: All your thoughts will start aiming toward unification.
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From the 4th part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 4/18/2011,  Baal HaSulam’s Letter 10